I can never be told
What happens
What was said
No one lets me know
I cant know
They hide behind lies
Sometimes not telling me at all
Why mention the subject
If you wont tell me
It bothers me
I feel so lonely
Dont tell me about it
If you wont tell me
I cry
The feelings of depression come
I am the all Unknowing
Maybe it is better for you to be with him
I came and ruined his
Yours
Everyone's lives
I am a disappointment
I love you
Yet I know i must let you go
I have to let everyone go
Maybe the next time you see me
Will be the last
In a picture is all
Then a casket
Maybe...
Even if I do live through the Marines
Until
I feel so lonely
So empty
I dont know why
Or how
You do this to me
Why do I Love You?
Is it your beauty
Your great personality
How you're so fun
I cant figure it out
Even though I am not
I feel so alone
So afraid
I wish I could go back
See what would have happened
If only I would have asked
I wish I did
I was too stupid
I regret my stupidity
I always have
You deserve the best
I want you to have that
The times you get hurt
Its not only you hurt
I am hurt too
I lost myself long ago
Within your eyes
Your smile
Everything about you is great
Why must I feel this way?
It hurts
Just the pain of
Feeling Alone
The boy drowns
Forever left in a pool of sorrow
Full of all his pains
His hurt
His life can never be fixed
He left without a trace
Just a memory
He was nothing important at all
He never would be..
He could not love
Without being hurt
Always losing
To another better man
He never deserved anyone anyway
He was a fool to believe
He had any chance at all
He would give anything
His life
His heart
Anything
Just for her
She saw that
Saw he loved her
Saw he had nothing else
She saw inside him
That he could truly love
A love that couldnt be beaten
He would treat her right
Never hurt her
She still pushed him away
Like eve
He took care of me
Helped me through the pain
Threw me forward
Through all obstacles
Smiled upon my sorrows
Made all nightmares come true
Showed me everything
What this world really is
How we consume
Consume everything
He knew my fate
He always has
Knew what would come of me
How everything would end
He knows all
He showed me how we know nothing
Compared to him
He only lets us live
For maybe we can be redeemed
He chose me
As the one to save us
Forgive our sins
Let us live
My sacrifice save us
I am but a puppet
Never to be loved
No reason to
I am but a hollow figure
A toy of life's agony
No control of my life
Not
His only wish
For her to be happy
He watched her from the side
Watched the life he had once been apart of
He smiled
When she smiled
He knew he couldnt be
A part of it any longer
His smile left him
He loved her smile
Her beautiful smile
The gorgeous girl
He once had
She found another
A better man
He finally walked back on stage
To say his farewells
He shook the mans hand
Kissed hers
He whispered in her ear
I Love You
He went back to the side
Their eyes followed
He stopped
Turned and looked
Her eyes shining
Her cheeks moist with tears
He knows he must leave
He blew her a kiss
Slowly he backed away
Watching her a
I had hurt you so much
A way you never deserved
I wish I could replace
That pain with happiness
I wish I could go back
To stay
Forever
I deserve Nothing
Not even life
Such a gorgeous girl
Such a great person
I hurt you too much
I hand you the knife
You know what to do
Your revenge
I sacrifice myself
To take that pain away
That pain you never deserved
I start lay upon the table
I say one last thing
I whisper them into your ear
I Love You
My head is upon the table
Staring into your eyes
Full of tears
I reach out
Wipe them away
I tell you im ready
The sharp pain enters my chest
My life I can feel fade
I whisper I
He sits alone
The dark consumes him
He knows only fear
Depression
Tears roll the small cheeks
So young
Abandoned
Left to fend for himself
This young boy
Left all alone
So cold
How cruel a punishment
What has this young boy done?
Nothing at all
He only lived
No one cares for him
He is so alone
He is frowned upon
As if its his fault
His only wish
Even thought these people cast him out
For no reason
His one wish
Would be for all others to be happy
This boy
Who has only himself
Who has been abused so badly
Still he thinks of others
Before his own self
This boy is now a young man
Inside he still is that frightened
H
He comes so sudden
Yet so late
I watch him move towards me
He stares into my eyes
Sees how I feel
Alone
Not scared just alone
Awaiting his arrival for so long
I greet him warmly
Without fright
He puts his hand upon mine
He tells me its time to go
I nod my head in approval
As we leave I look behind me
I see my life and all thats happened
I ask him
Before we go
Do You think ive led a good life?
He replies to me with only a smile
Then he says
You will see..
He opens the black door of Death
Guides me through
I say thank you
Walking alone again
Just like before
Yet I feel a warmth about me
I watch my life fade away fr
Shoot me now
Kill me quick
I need to die
Need to go
My life is worthless
I am nothing
I deserve it
Do it now
Take it quick
Snatch my life
Out from me
Let my soul
Out to be free
Let Hell's Worst
Torment me
I need it now
Make it mine
The torture
The Pain
I've done too much
I hurt you
I let you down
I need to die
Give me Death
I beg of you
Send my soul
Through Hell's Gates
Just go ahead
Kill Me Now
I watch him fall
I watch him struggle
To fight for survival
And to be cut down
Lost in this world
So dark and so cruel
I dont think
I just react
Before I knew
Im here by him
He's such a mess
He's lost this game
The enemy is the one to blame
I pull up my gun
My now only friend
In this cruel time
It must be my friend
I shoot two shots
Into the head
Into the head of and now the enemy lays dead
He shot my one true friend
Now he is dead
I turn to my friend
With his wounded chest
Nothing i can do
He struggles through the pain...
He has lost this cruel game
And I am to win
He looks up at me
He says his goodbyes
He loo
As he lays there,a lone tear rolls down his cheek
As this lone tear rolls the boy wonders as to what this means
As he thinks his heart is the one to know
As he asks his heart,it gives him three answers
One being how happy he is for his friends and them being happy
Another for his sorrow for he keeps a secret within him
The Last for how he knows what this tear symbolizes
This Lone Tear,the only tear to come out of all these emotions
The one to go,the one to stray from the others
This tear,it symbolizes one thing
The Boy
The Boy who one day may leave his friends that he holds this secret from
The Boy who knows this is wrong
The Boy
As he lays there,a lone tear rolls down his cheek
As this lone tear rolls the boy wonders as to what this means
As he thinks his heart is the one to know
As he asks his heart,it gives him three answers
One being how happy he is for his friends and them being happy
Another for his sorrow for he keeps a secret within him
The Last for how he knows what this tear symbolizes
This Lone Tear,the only tear to come out of all these emotions
The one to go,the one to stray from the others
This tear,it symbolizes one thing
The Boy
The Boy who one day may leave his friends that he holds this secret from
The Boy who knows this is wrong
The Boy
It all starts
All starts
When they join
Look at all the posters
Join Now and go to Exotic places and meet new people
Yeah
Meet new people
In Exotic places
And then shoot them
It all starts
When they join
They fight
They die
The survive
They fight to survive
When human beings
Human beings are hunted
Hunted by other human beings
That is a Soldier
A Hunter
Trained
Trained to kill
Trained to kill for what they are told is right
How is it right?
How is killing
Murdering
Right?
How is it right?
They say its for a good cause
A good cause
A cause made up by one man
One man or One woman
Unbelievable
It all starts wh
War
Death
Hatred
Sorrow
Sadness
Anger
None good
Does any good come from War?
It seems like it has nothing good
People die
Lose their lives
While someone sits back and watches commanding them
Commanding them to die
Sending them to their death
But they do nothing
They just sit and watch
Sadness
So Sad
Why does War have to be?
So many families ruined
So many lives lost
So many
So many things happen from War
I see nothing good
Nothing at all
There is nothing but Death
Death and Hate
Nothing good
Ever
Things as the Civil War to free the slaves
Still
Men died
From all sides
Good cause
There are good causes
Yet
Will You Stay
Will you stay,and keep me safe,Will you let me protect you,Or will you leave and thrash pain upon me,for you are who i am,what i need,i cant live without you,you are my life,So will you please stay and save a life
Close To Me
as close to me as you have come,i havent felt quite as glum,when you say hey,i come alive,i can feel again,i can see again,its ok to live again
Safe
I thought i was safe at home,I thought i had a sanctuary here,but no one is as dear,as you who makes me feel so safe and sanctioned as you come near
I've Died...
ive died and gone to Heaven,Ive died and Gone to Hell,But no where is as safe,as when i am w
I Miss You So Much When You're by privatewolf, literature
Literature
I Miss You So Much When You're
I wish I could be there
I Miss You so Terribly
You've become a need
I Love You Soo much
I wish I could hold you
I wish i could be with you
I hope we come together soon
I cant wait until then
I can't wait to just to talk to you
I can't wait to hear your voice
To see your gorgeous face
To be with you my love
I Miss It all
Im so glad we met
I love talking to you
I love this feeling
I love seeing your beautiful,gorgeous face
Im so glad we are together
I Love You
And...
I Miss You So Much When You're Gone
Even After Time Has An End.... by privatewolf, literature
Literature
Even After Time Has An End....
I Love You Forever
It will never end
My Love fo you is endless
Your So Smart
So Nice
So Kind
So Sweet
So Loveable
So Caring
So Loving
So Gorgeous
So Great
The Greatness of you is uncomparable
You have So Much Beauty in you
In Your Smile
Your Eyes
Your Talk
Your Voice
Your Hair
Who You Are
How You Act
Your Personality
All have Beauty within them
I Can't stop thinking about You
I never want this feeling to end
I Love You Forever and Ever
Even After
Time Has An End.....
He stands in the moonlight
Alone
Numb
Hurt..
He looks at his pale wrist in the light
No longer white
His skin cut open
A sea of red in place
No one knows his pain
He watches as it flows more and more
Time passes the cuts form scars
The scars are covered with more seas
The seas start becoming Oceans
He cant feel
He cant love
He cant be heard
He is alone
Abandoned
Can anyone find him now?
Can anyone love him?
More and more scars become
All from his own hand
He watched while the tears roll down his cheeks
He waits for someone to love him
He sits
He cuts
He waits
Carving of his own flesh
He is numb the cuts do not for
My one last moment with you
The day you left me
They time you left
Everything Stopped
That First......
That First and Final Time I met you
That fateful day after....
That day I wish never came
Everything stood still
You fell to the floor
The clock stopped
You left this plain
And entered another...
Your last smile stood in my mind
When you hit the floor
It all came crashing
I wasnt there
I couldnt save you
Everything stopped
You hit the floor and the clock froze
Your heart was attacked
It rendered useless
It stopped
You stopped
I stopped
My world Stopped
That was....
When Time Stood Still...................
Why must we go?
Why must we go for your cause?
For what You start
For what You want
Are we just pawns to You?
We die because You want something
Why do you fight these Wars?
Why can't You fight them?
We didnt start them
We didnt want them
We dont want to lose our loved ones
We dont want to die
Why do loved have to become lost for You?
We have done nothing to you
You say its for us
For the people
For our safety
How is it protecting us
If our troops are killed
How is it protecting us if people are dieing
Hunting and Killing other people
Why do we do this?
We are all humans
We can talk
Talk it over
Dont kill
We dont want
I'm getting tired of this shit everyday,
you pull me close,
you push me away.
I wish I had the will to fight you off,
your dangerous,
I feel your poison already running through my veins,
you pull the chains tighter across my chest,
I can't hardly breathe,
I am too busy fighting your mess.
I can say I like you a lot,
these feelings,
I doubt they will be forgot.
But your not safe,
you can kiss me,
you can hold me,
and then you can shove me away,
like i am just a doll,
for you to play.
If you want to play,
go find a barbie, I deserve so much more.
but if you want to be with me,
tell me now,
so my heart can explore,
see if
A peom I wrote bout him...
Games
THe soft breath,
Lying against my skin.
Your arms holding me gently,
but stronger then a thousand men.
The soft kiss that captures my heart.
The look in your eyes,
keeps you forever in my mind.
I feel I can count on you,
to hold my hand,
to keep me strong.
When I get hurt,
you always come to make sure I'm alright.
The sweet concern,
tears my heart.
IF I fall,
I hope you'll help me rise.
You keep my stomach,
alive with butterflies.
They've never lasted this long,
but now they never cease,
to keep that small smile in my mind.
But to you,
is it a game?
Please, Please,
Don't let it be tha
Was I dead to you,
whhen I started out?
Was I a toy,
to twist and snap?
Did you want to push me to the edge?
Her I am,
ready to jump,
ready to take a stand.
Would it open your eyes?
or would I have to bring the knife,
to your heart.
I want to see the ugly thing,
that keeps you alive.
I want ot put the hole,
in your heart,
and watch you die.
I long to feel your dying breath,
fluttering across my ear.
I want to see you crying eyes.
AS I long to save you at the same time.
How do you hold me in your grasp,
when I want to kill you.
to stare into your burning eyes,
I want you to die,
but then
I can't bring myself
to see yo
This is my life
This is my war
This life of mine
keeps droppin' bombs
and I'm just keepin'
the scores
It seems like I'm losing
this war
I keep fighting
I won't quit
This is my life
This is my war
This life of mine
keeps droppin' bombs
and I'm just keepin'
the scores
It's 10 to 1
I'm still losing
This life of wars
is getting to hard
I won't give up
I'll take the bombs
I get and figure a way
around them
This is my life
This is my war
This life of mine
keeps droppin' bombs
and I'm just keepin'
the scores
She stares,
Looking around.
She glares,
At the shattered bodies on the ground.
All of those who hurt her,
Shall go with her in the end.
She looks for another victim.
Who will be next?
Her mother,
Her father?
So many have hurt her,
So many lover to tear her heart to pieces
But who's left to die?
You couldn't care less,
You wouldn't love more.
Shouldn't you be the one to play the price?
All those tears she wept.
All the blood she lost.
Thinking of you,
Thinking of her heart.
Wouldn't you just cry for her,
Just once?
But no,
Your crippled plaything pulls out the knife,
Trying once more,
To end your life.
But she sees y
Sacrifice another one by chemicalpainlife, literature
Literature
Sacrifice another one
I am done with you,
I'm free.
From these chains you lock on me.
I see the startled look,
upon your face.
And I know now,
you've found your place.
You can burn in hell,
only time will tell,
if you've made it there before me.
Thank you for sacrificing yourself,
to free myself.
I think of this,
as I stare at your blood,
so dark and glistening,
against your light hardwood floor.
I look behind once more,
as I walk out the door.
Happy to be free,
All it took was a dagger,
to your throught.
Thats all I needed,
to have my hope.
Together forever?
Together until the end?
what lies do you darken me with,
what deceit will I face in this day?
Will I make it through?
Or will I fall to the darkness,
as you had?
Will you pick me up and carry me,
or drop me to the hell below?
Will my heart be filled tofay,
or will my blood fall,
leaving me to turn cold,
as your heart did so long ago?
I ask so many questions,
and my heart tears,
from all the pain it bears.
Who caused it,
who made me stop and think,
is this best for me?
Will it help me until the end,
or will it start over again?
Lost in a sick mind,
everything lost,
everything blind.
Her hands starte to go numb,
as she goes to his hand.
she takes the knife quickly,
and slices it across his skin.
His voice cries in agony,
as his fingers were cut, one by one.
She walked around him slowly,
and brought a gun out,
and shot him in the head.
She opens her motuh,
and said it quick.
Is this what you wanted?
Is this how you planned to die?
tell me how hell is,
I care to know.
Goodnight my sweet prince,
and until hell,
were we shall meet again.
where we can be together,
until we live anew.
Together we'll be,
its true.
You call me beautiful,
you say you can't live without me.
But i learned its all just a lie.
You hold me,
but it is so cold.
I can't take your love,
its too cruel.
You have to learn as you go,
but you go to show,
not everyone is the 'one',
I am moving on,
and i am sorry to say,
I need to go.
He stands in the moonlight
Alone
Numb
Hurt..
He looks at his pale wrist in the light
No longer white
His skin cut open
A sea of red in place
No one knows his pain
He watches as it flows more and more
Time passes the cuts form scars
The scars are covered with more seas
The seas start becoming Oceans
He cant feel
He cant love
He cant be heard
He is alone
Abandoned
Can anyone find him now?
Can anyone love him?
More and more scars become
All from his own hand
He watched while the tears roll down his cheeks
He waits for someone to love him
He sits
He cuts
He waits
Carving of his own flesh
He is numb the cuts do not for
Current Residence: Wisconsin Favourite genre of music: ROCK!! ill listen to anything though Favourite photographer: Courtney Favourite style of art: Ice Cream! Operating System: Windows XP Professional Shell of choice: Whats a shell?!?!??! Wallpaper of choice: One of my pictures in my My Pictures folder Favourite cartoon character: Stuwey,Homer ,Gir,Zim,Ed,Edd,Eddy,and Patrick Personal Quote: "The Forgiveness is between Them and God,It's My Job to Arrange The Meeting"-Creasy
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Pablo Picasso idk
Favourite Movies
Saving Private Ryan(cause my grandpa.....)
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
hmmmm Metallica(the old stuff)
Favourite Writers
Gary Paulsen for writer,and Courtney for poet
Favourite Games
Metal Gear Solid,all of them to be and all of them before
Favourite Gaming Platform
Sony's Stuff anything from PS1 to PS55 Sony Rocks lol
Tools of the Trade
Knives are fun!!
Other Interests
Sports,mostly running,talkin to my gf!and my friends
It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away
What stupid poem can fix this home I'd read it every day
So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when your dead and gone
Well you, you'll never guess my twenty years now lost
Its not right
Their anger hurts my ears
Been burnin' strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along, so why can't they?
If th
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone
(Chorus:)
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Someday's the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
we're more than carbon and chemicals
free will is ours and we can't let go
we can't allow this, the quiet cull
so we sing out this, our canticle
we are the image of the invisible
we all were lost now we are found
no one can stop us or slow us down
we are all named and we are all known
we know that we'll never walk alone
we're more than static and dial tone
we're emblematic of the unknown
raise up the banner, bend back your bows
remove the cancer, take back your souls
we are the image of the invisible
though all the world may hate us, we are named
though shadow overtake us, we are known